Another year has come to an end, and I'm still trying to figure out where the time has gone. Not sure where to even begin with this post because the end of year always makes me nostalgic. This year it was just, well, a little different from the previous years as I'm taking the longest break ever since I started studying. I spent more time doing things I like with the people I love and I spent more time caring for myself and people around me.

Those of you who read my first blog post know that I've been through some issues when I was in college, which have a big impact on me. Most of you might not know about this because I rarely talk about how much confidence I lost after those incidents. I lost my confidence to the extent that I hate looking into mirrors and I hate going out of the house. I started working out a lot this year and in the beginning, I felt disappointed and betrayed because I don't see any results after days and weeks of hard work. I created my own daily workout routine and started drinking green tea and detox juice this year. There were days when I felt like giving up but I know I have to keep holding on in order to find my confidence back. After 6 months, I finally lost 4-5 kilograms and I started to see changes in my body although I'm still quite a distance away from my ideal weight and body goal. However, I think I'm miles and miles better than how I used to feel about myself.



This year, I finally have the time to do the things I like - travelling and drawing. Drawing is my passion but I don't have the time to draw when I was in college. And, I realized that drawing is like an escape for me and I can spend hours drawing without feeling bored. This year September, I received a reject letter from the University I wish to pursue in and I was so lost and I cried for hours. At that moment, I really don't know what to do and I just sat beside the bed and cried for hours. I felt disappointed in myself for not doing my best during my interview and I blamed myself for not doing well enough during my exam. To be blatantly honest, there were a few weeks when I found myself in a big slump. I just wanted to sleep all day and don't want to think of anything at all. That was when some thoughts like "Should I give up on Dentistry and take Architecture instead?", "Do I really want drawing as my job?" came in. I'm very grateful that my family and friends were there for me when I need advises. I appealed and went for a second interview and finally received an offer letter from them YAY! :D I'm one step closer to being a dentist and I really can't wait to start the next chapter of my life.



I know I will be busier and don't really have the time to spend with my family after my uni starts. So, I spent a lot of time with my family this year after my A level and we traveled to Korea last October. This year I decided to slow down a tad bit on my studies and social life to focus on myself, taking care of my health and spending time with my family. It is so true that we always take our parents' love and care for granted as you know that they will always be there for you no matter what. But no, our parents won't be there forever. My grandpa past away last November and I realized that my parents are growing older while I'm busy growing up. So, I really want to cherish all the time I spend with them.

I'm proud that I learnt something important this year, which is to respect myself by walking away from things and people that no longer makes me happy. There are some people that I lost contact with and people who were close to me that walked away from my life this year. Of course there are moments when something reminds me of them and I want to let them know, but so much time has passed and so many things happened that contacting them would be weird. I learnt that this is part of life and people come and go. But the best, will definitely stay.

Thanks for all the good and bad things happened on me, precious lessons that I learned and people who stayed with me through my ups and downs. In 2016, I aspire to be someone better with more confidence and achieve something bigger. And most importantly in 2016, I want to be more positive. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! ♡